I replied without hesitation!
“How much do you weigh now?” someone asked.
“86 kilos,” I replied, instantly, without hesitation.
“Oh, wow... I mean, how much did you weigh before starting the diet?” they continued.
“95. Yep, too much, I know,” I said.
No, this isn't just small talk to me. It’s much deeper.
For as long as I can remember, I’ve always avoided questions about my weight, my size. Maybe that’s why I’ve always hated numbers, who knows? The kind of numbers that are supposed to define us: age, weight, height, salary...
The funny part? I was never bullied or body-shamed. So I honestly don’t know where the insecurity came from.
I always told myself: “It’s my body. I won’t give a shit about what people think of it.” I thought that was confidence.
Apparently, I was wrong.
I never really felt confident, not until yesterday. Not until I faced the very thing I used to avoid.
That moment taught me something: shedding body weight is nothing compared to shedding the weight of insecurity.
It took me nearly three decades to figure that out.