2025? Yes, please!

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Helloooooo!!

    I haven't written since a long timeeeeee, like soooo long time.. Many things have happened during this period of time. 

    Nah nah, I haven't met the love of my life (yet).. Not that exactly.. But something similar has happened, I just came to realization that I'm the first person who deserves to receive MY love and care fully and unconditionally before anyone else.. So now, I'm learnin' to prioritize myself, my peace, my health and of course my family while sendin' others to fuck themselves so hard. (Oopsie, the good girl started cussin' now, How bad... for assholes N' bitches!) 

    Lovin' myself made me become tougher and guess what? It's not bad at all! Fuckin' lovin' it!  

    2025 is definitely MY year with all of its challenges N' hardships. My mental and physical health were tested so freakin' bad durin' this year: Anxiety, Panic Attacks, Insomnia, Constant fear of losin' a loved one, Hyperventilation, Irritated Colon Syndrome, Hypothyroid.. 

    Please hold on, I haven't even turned 30 yet, I wasn't goin' to allow this to go any further.. So, I immediately stood for myself and said: FUCK THIS, Ah ah not this time, I'm reclaimin' all of my power N' energy.. So, I started this healin' journey havin' no idea about what I should or shouldn't do but I started it anyway and that was a life changin' decision, I started takin' care of my body which in the past was so ABUSED by my unhealthy behaviours, I began to listen to its needs, its silent screams and take actions accordingly.. Eatin' healthy food, doin' the intermittent fastin' shit, hydratin' my skin, Cuttin' off all kinds of sugar, gluten and lactoze.. and boy oh boy, I've never been this proud of myself ! (HOLY SATISFACTION)

    My mental health is goin' through ups and downs (still) but I'm trustin' the process, bein' almost sure that I can and WILL beat anxiety's ass so bad sooner or later, puttin' all of my trust in Allah SWT. 

    Ok, I've talked so much about all of the negativity that has occured durin' the first semester of this year, now I'ma share some really good things that have happened : 


    1. We moved to a new flat which is bigger, brighter, with a more beautiful view exactly how my mom wanted it to be (Insured family's comfort, BINGO!)

    2. I bought a new fridge, cooker and washing machine, (BINGO 2.0!)

    3. I paid for my mom's cataract surgery and thank Almighty Allah, she is seeing much better, 

    4. Preparin' for Tunisia trip (My FUCKIN' first trip EVER) with Gia (Preparin' for my 30 things to do durin' this trip list before turnin' 30), 

    5. Workin' on my first small local business (Sip N' Say Club) in collaboration with Nadjet, 

    6. Healin', Detachin' myself from every toxic aspect of this damned life, and glowin' (Like SHININ' SO BRIGHT! )

    7. Lovin', double lovin', triple LOVIN' my family with actions, but also with words.. Sharin' this love brings peace to my soul,

    8. Learned to love my passin' dad without destroyin' myself .. 

    9. Still workin' on my spirituality to become a better version of myself  to please Allah, and only Allah SWT.. 

    10. Fightin' so hard to get rid of all kinds of negative feelings n' behaviours such as jealousy, competition with others, seekin' people's validation, auto-sabotage..


So yeah, 2025 was my year and I would not change a single thing about it! 

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